Events, Love, and Loneliness.

I chose guitar over ballet but for the record, I'm a pretty good dancer. Dancing gives you endorphins and helps the mind and soul in the long run.

Last night was quite eventful for my fairly boring life. I sat on the floor in my bathroom (vocals and acoustics sound better, it echoes) and recorded a few versions of Under the Bridge and found my year- old original song about John Lennon. I'm planning on putting it online, but I guess I have to wait until I go to the Apple Store to clean up my disk space.

I also got to see two of my friends that I haven't seen in ages, Brogan, she's one of the nicest people you could ever meet, and Laurel, those people are rare these days. Just hanging out and talking, it can heal you in a way. It gave me a wake up call. I actually saw a spider and didn't scream. or two. Living life looking through my eyes is a trip I tell you. Dreams of pouring rain and afterwards, the rainbow in the sun. Back and forth. Up and down. Love and Loneliness. Humor and Seriousness.

Songs for thought:

One of the Boys- Katy Perry/ Be My Escape- Relient K/ Wet Sand- Red Hot Chili Peppers/ Bryn- Vampire Weekend/ Apocalypse Please- Muse/ I'm Shakin- Rooney/ God is A DJ- Pink/A Manner to Act- Ra Ra Riot/ Rememo- Kings of Leon/ Dear Prudence- The Beatles/ Short Skirt/Long Jacket- Cake/ Zak and Sara- Ben Folds/ Here in Your Arms- Hellogoodbye/ August's Rhapsody- August Rush/ You Belong With Me- Taylor Swift/ More Vitamin String Quartet

xoxo lisa marie

'Cause my iPod is your iPod.

All I see is music. Everywhere. I used to have two iPod's, a touch and a regular one. Sadly, the latter perished a while ago. It's a great device, an iPod. It's the one thing that I think in this day and age is actually useful (besides the internet, yet at the same time i hate the internet). The turntable my family owns skips a lot so I don't really listen to vinyl unless I have a reason to or am in the room. Music, it sends a message. Perhaps i'll go back to a reading phase after. Right now I'm into a lot of music without words, Vitamin String Quartet, theme songs, and I really like the music from August Rush! Vampire Weekend, Katy Perry, She & Him. Anyways, i think it's time for a new iPod! Soon.

xoxo lisa marie

p.s. I always keep faith in God.

Lemons & Concentration

I have no idea what to blog about today. I saw a musical last night and today I went to visit a beautiful facility called Timberline Knolls which is basically a rehab center. Lately my life has been going nowhere and a little messy. I've had so much trouble finding motivation to do pretty much anything. Have you ever felt like you were dying but your brain is functioning and heart beating? Probably not but it's what I feel from time to time. I don't have drug problems and I'm pretty sure don't have an eating disorder but I've always admired people that were able to get through things like that. If I went I would be cut off from the internet for a few months. I'm such an open person but there's still so much people don't know about me. Bottom line: It's do or die, I can't get away, I feel trapped. One day I'll knock the world off its feet, promise. When life hands you lemons...

"Ever notice how 'what the hell' is always the right answer?"- Marilyn Monroe :) So true.

Some songs for thought:

The Kids Don't Stand A Chance- Vampire Weekend/ Teenage Dream- Katy Perry/ On Your Porch- The Format/ Storm in A Teacup- Red Hot Chili Peppers/ The Other Side- Scissor Sisters/ The Best Damn Thing- Avril Lavigne/ Radio/Video- System of A Down/ Bonnie Taylor Shakedown 2K1- Hellogoodbye/ Do You Believe in Magic?- The Lovin' Spoonful/ Clocks- Coldplay/ Feeling This- Blink 182/ Mandy- Jonas Brothers/ Buddy Holly- Weezer/ 1000 Julys & How's It Going To Be- Third Eye Blind/ California- Phantom Planet/ A Lifeless Ordinary (Need A Little Help)- Motion City Soundtrack/ Some Vitamin String Quartet

xoxo lisa marie

Together, We're...

dancing on the top of a mountain.

It took me thirty seconds to a minute in my life to realize...

I see things differently. I don't wanna say I told you so to people that I know, including my family. But the impossible is the inevitable now. I'm in sync. "A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality." At least that's what John Winston Lennon said. ♥

But where can I start without help? I lost a few of my (ex) best friends over a stupid facebook fight a couple of months ago. Those bitches. :] The friends I do have, seem to be nonchalant about things these days. Where is the love?

xoxo lisa marie

Chasing (Imperfection).

Someone once told me that imperfection is beauty (well, I kind of figured it out for myself) and I've learned it to be totally true. Like writing a song and scribbling out the parts you change. It's original, it's still beautiful and it's yours. Yet, why am I still a perfectionist sometimes?

I've been working on getting some covers down so I can finally put up some YouTube videos. (one being Tristan Prettyman's Love Love Love). I was always really bad at picking so I mainly play chords now. If I was ever in a band I would definitely want to play rhythm. But I think my path is film....My cousin/sister already makes rad videos with her best friends that sorta, kinda remind me of a mix of the Beatles (can't buy me love in a hard day's night!) and other things...

I saw Eclipse yesterday. No comment. Except for the fact that I was sleeping in a sleeping bag for the five days preceding it and I bought a dream catcher. I guess Bella Swan and I have something in common. I've had the first book for 3 years and I still haven't finished it.

My favorite blog so far has been the one about the sixties (and seventies). Let's talk more. If I had lived in that era would I have been a wild child groupie? Probably not, but definitely a flower child hippie. The decade was so turbulent. Love and peace but also war and chaos. An imperfectly perfect era. These days life is just so...blah. I wish I had people in support of my dreams, but lately real live support has been in short supply. On the other hand...when dreams come true why does no one care? At least that's how I see it.

xoxo lisa marie

7654321...More Music

This is really happening. I hear music. iPod is God. (right now) I can relate to a lot of Motion City Soundtrack and Third Eye Blind. There are periods of time where I just sit around and absorb this drug. (lyrics and melodies) My favorite thing to do is dream whilst listening to music. It's a really powerful thing, and when you have an extensive imagination (or even better the ability to see yourself doing what you dream) anything is really possible. It's so cliche but I'm a gullible person on top of it all anyway. I believe almost anything. I felt a little better after I went to the police station the other day to talk to one of the cops... Laughter is the best medicine hands down for sure even when you feel like you can't hold on, hold on. -----> That's pretty much a line from a great song. It gives me hope. "Time you enjoy wasting, was not wasted."- John Winston Lennon :]

♫♪♫♪

xoxo lisa marie

Speaking of the Sixties and Now.

I'm really bored. Randomness... ---♥

Some facts/things I like and dislike...

- I love Stuart Sutcliffe, the forgotten fifth Beatle. It's like he's parallel with Hillel Slovak, who was the first guitarist of Red Hot Chili Peppers. The difference: Stuart couldn't really play bass, and was an artist. Both died way too young.

-Where was I when Woodstock happened? I wasn't born yet. All hail Jimi and Janis.

-Bob Dylan and Joni Mitchell...amazing folky-ness. If I lived in the sixties I wouldn't have been pissed when Dylan went electric.

- I loved Pattie Boyd with George Harrison [(Even though I kinda sorta used to like the song Layla. Eric stole her away with that song. :( ] Still trying to finish her memoir. Someday.

-Marilyn Monroe was so intelligent. Her quotes are right on.

- I like watching Veronica Mars and eating clementines... it's weird.

- I go back and forth with my interests. guitar/writing/singing/painting/reading/TRYING to edit and make videos (I wish I had help). I always switch off.

-I wish that someday God will answer my prayers. Does He even hear me?

What I've been up to: I'll never tell. :] I have been pretty sad though too.

"The more real you get the more unreal everything else gets."- John Winston Lennon ♥

xoxo lisa marie

p.s. Today I confirmed and realized my cousin is the most amazing video editor on the planet. If only I could focus too, go to Columbia College in Chicago, and start working on my dream of being a director.

What I Think is the Meaning of Life! & Then My So-Called One...

Hint: John Winston Lennon figured it out.

A few weeks ago I read a piece of writing to my friend concerning the future tattoo I want to get. All you need is love. Ironically it was on the exact date of the worldwide broadcast by the Beatles in 1967. I wrote it because I started living the motto. Things just don’t really matter, nothing really matters anymore, the issue is love. If you think really hard, would you rather have a lot of material things and clothes and fame (you obviously need some type of clothing and shelter) or would you rather be spending time with people you love or perhaps your soul mate. I’d choose the two latter!

Right now, I have to admit, my life is going completely nowhere. I can’t focus, I lasted two weeks at a university last fall, I failed out a semester at my community college this spring, I have no job but for some reason I still feel like life is worthwhile. It’s like I’m in limbo but I still have faith. Maybe coincidences aren’t really coincidences, everything happens for a reason or so I believe. Some things are meant to be, and some are not. Am I meant to ever fall in love? .:If love is so free than why am I caged? I wanna be free!:. The problem is I don’t think anyone else realized or realizes that they don’t see the real me. It’s so frustrating.

xoxo lisa marie

I Don't Want to Lie to Myself Anymore.

This is not a joke. Music is officially my drug, information on the side. You might ask what that certain info is... that is one this (or many for that matter) that I feel I cannot do on the internet. I contradict myself because I already share way too much about myself online.

I start to think wholly, fully, about the past couple of months- (or even years) and what they mean. It's so much bigger than me being trapped in the past and not being able to let go. --It was a revelation to behold, into the cosmic consciousness. I'm in the eye of a hurricane, like a storm in a teacup. Just sort of a freak show. --Wait, are those all chapters of a book? Yes.

I wish I could compile a list of all the funny random inside jokes my friends and I have had over the years...but it would take forever. And don't you sometimes wish your life was recorded so you could watch it back? I sure do.

"Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today."- James Dean

xoxo lisa marie

My iPod is Acting A Little Funny.

So can you imagine that the dream catcher I got didn't work? Maybe it needs to be broken in, who knows... because it didn't catch my nightmare.

So I wish I could be one of those super bloggers and actually pick a topic and stick to it. Unfortunately, I love to be random. What am I attempting to read right now? The Last Song. (I have really bad add) What am I sad about? Demi Lovato and Joe Jonas breaking up. Cover of Teen Vogue. What am I listening to?...

Some songs for thought:

Can't Get Away- Third Eye Blind / Check Yes Juliet- We the Kings/ I'll Be Your Domino- Red Hot Chili Peppers / Everybody's Got Something to Hide Except Me And My Monkey- The Beatles/ Lucky- Jason Mraz (feat. Colbie Caillat) /Cowboy Casanova- Carrie Underwood /All These Things That I've Done- The Killers/ Wish You Were Here- Pink Floyd/ Life in Technicolor- Coldplay/ Dream- Miley Cyrus/ Some Hannah Montana...

xoxo lisa marie

Song Bridges & A Psychic in the Middle

Many of my favorite parts of songs are the bridges. It completes the song and rescues it from boring repetition. I love Taylor Swift bridges, and others too. In A Day in the Life [The Beatles] after "somebody spoke and I went into a dream..." that's my favorite part. I always love the little things, a small dose of drama from my own personal addiction; my drug is most definitely music. Bridges are the piece that really pulls me in. The irony? My favorite song is Under the Bridge [Red Hot Chili Peppers].

It's scary being me, I have to tell you. There is so much people don’t know about me, I keep most of it hidden. I don’t drive, I try to save the money I do have, and I never go swimming. My life was turned upside down one day and I realized I’m surrounded by both really positive and really negative energy. I feel like a slow psychic, I know things and then they either happen to me or other people. But now I feel like I’m just the communicator.

Today I’m on a quest to find a dream catcher.

xoxo lisa marie

Daydreams and Nightmares

Have you ever experienced both extremes? Daydreaming is awesome, (and so are dreams while asleep) but nightmares can be the most frightening thing especially when they seem real. You know what people say that if you die in your dreams you actually die? I think I made it halfway. I actually had to call the cops. Luckily I woke up, and it will never happen again.

Switching back to the former, I have regular dreams for myself and others. I wish I could help people out in some way, but how can you help when you feel that you can't even help yourself? I aspire to someday make movies too. I am drawn to art, it's always been my forte, and you can express a lot through it. I paint and I write on the side. I'm just a really all-over-the-place person. I can pretty much be anything when I'm in my right self, I'm a tad bit strange but aren't we all?

xoxo lisa marie