Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Romeo + Juliet

Claire Danes and Leonardo DiCaprio in Baz Luhrmann's vision

The story has always fascinated me. A tragedy of star-crossed lovers who, end up taking their lives because of the world around them and feuding families. Ill- fated circumstances matched with undying love-  they can only be truly together in death.  Don't even ask about my opinions on that because no one knows- do they? Where did they go? Is heaven real? Does the other side truly exist? Were Romeo and Juliet finally able to have the love they envisioned and so desperately yearned for? I am hoping so. There should be a version where they don't die... of course then would it really be Romeo and Juliet? It's tragic but beautiful. Love should overpower everything else- discord, violence, arrogance, hate.

My bounty is as boundless as the sea, My love as deep. The more I give to thee, the more I have, for both are infinite. - Act. 2 Scene 2

xoxo lisa marie

Friday, November 19, 2010

Even at a Snail's Pace, I Never Say the Right Thing.

I can't even finish things I love, I never win first place, or literally, anything. I'm too impatient and make way too many mistakes. Along with the negatives I am also very determined to succeed, that is. Maybe blogging is a huge mistake- or a blessing in disguise.
Though I really wish I could break out of this lame piece of town called Barrington; unfortunately I have to deal with unpleasant forces and dreadful, debilitating anxiety. Meeting new people is really, really hard for me. No one knows what it's like to be me, and still- I have no followers on this blog anyway. I'm not gonna be saved anytime soon by any of the hot boys that magically appear when I listen to Led Zep. It's true- just happened again today at the dermatologist.

Facebook is the most vile invention on the planet. Seriously, Mark Zuckerberg and associates...?

What is it- our will to be the latest trend, the newest technology, the next multi-billionaire or just plain laziness, I cannot answer that. Facebook turned me into a zombie, and i'm trying the countercurse- actually calling my friends. Nope but not even that can restrain me from lashing out what's been manifesting for years. Falling for guys online ruined everything. Not even gonna get into it. Why? Some people actually like technology and that thing- Facebook. I hate it but I use it, FB lovers. Does that make me a hypocrite? Maybe.

Whoever is reading, I love you. I also love Harry Potter, very, very much.

xoxo lisa marie ♥

Monday, November 8, 2010

Catching Up. Catching Me.

I came home from a treatment facility, rehab (whatever you'd like to call it) after two months to find loads of change. Most of the time I don't do well with it. I didn't do well when I first came in. That slowly changed and I found best friends for life, a new perspective, discipline - I'm awfully lazy. It was beautiful and horrible all at the same time.

Love my TK girls. Alumni represent!

My experiences have been different than others obviously but that doesn't make them less valid. It's been said that God is just a concept by which we measure our pain but I believe life is. However much you screw up, you can always get it back. Small miracles happen every day. Such as meeting someone you love on the street... even though you can only muster up an "Omg" and "Hi!" because you're SPEECHLESS. Even seeing more of people, and realizing we are all equal, in this together. Not being upset over not having more time, enough time, the works.

I came back to Speak Now, Taylor Swift's new album which I can really relate to. It's about speaking up- duh! Saying something when you feel it necessary, even if it's not the right thing. I struggle with that a lot. I always have. I used to say I blew my life away one summer, but maybe that was just hell to prepare for a new beginning.

I might become a filmmaker, I might coach gymnastics, who knows.

To all those out there that don't believe in me, "Someday I'll be living in a big ole' city and all you're ever gonna be is mean. Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me and all your ever gonna be is mean."

xoxo lisa marie