Another negative post, from a periodically positive girl.
I hate when people (in this case friends) get your hopes up (or you yourself do) just to let you down and screw you over. To shatter dreams. A dream for me may be a wish for anyone else. That's how much it affects me. I'm going to California on July 28th, and I was with my friends, mentioned it, and somehow we got to talking about them going. I asked them if they had the money, they said yes. I was SO excited. I've never gotten to go on a vacation with friends, let alone in a beautiful place. Palo Alto, San Fran, Carmel, Monterey, Santa Cruz, San Luis Obispo, and San Jose. Of course, you might be thinking, any way, this is awesome! Well, what happened wasn't. Two weeks later after rapid text cycles, one of those two friends said she couldn't go because of work. The other said she couldn't go because her parents told her she couldn't go if the other friend didn't go. All of the energy I had put into being excited suddenly turned to anger. I was crying so hard, I was on the treadmill yelling, and I eventually chucked my iPod across the room with intending on breaking it. None of what I did helped me, at all. But the other thing is: Paul McCartney is playing Wrigley Field over the weekend of our vacation. Keep the bad luck coming.
I've been SO busy lately I'm starting to feel like my mom's friend Debbie. (She works for Sprint, knows just about everyone, does musicals, everything.) Just the busy part. But I AM excited for this coming weekend because here's the silver lining: I'm going with my friend to Lake of the Ozarks in Missouri on a canoe trip. In two days! THEN I'm coming home to my friend's giant party for the Fourth and her birthday. I haven't seen her all summer. Make that half a year.
I hope YOU guys are staying positive.
all my love,
xoxo lisa marie